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  Doctor Feel Good

  A Novel From The Be Yours Series

  Blue Saffire

  Contents

  Untitled

  Word From Blue

  Preface

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41

  Chapter 42

  Epilogue

  Blue Collection Character Tree

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Thank You

  Other books by Blue Saffire

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  Word From Blue

  Everything is in Divine timing. Find what’s meant to be and run with it. Leave your mark on the world, don’t let the world mark you.

  ―Blue Saffire

  Preface

  Online Love

  Omid

  “What are you doing?” my cousin, Ramses says as he walks into the room.

  I jump, nearly knocking the laptop from my lap as I sit on the bed with my back to the wall behind me. I look up to find the twins both watching me with mischievous smiles on their faces. My parents would literally kill me if they knew about my online profiles.

  Social media isn’t allowed in Iran. My Persian parents are nothing but traditional. This… all of this would be frowned upon. Just the thought makes my chest hurt.

  There are so many things I want to experience that my baba wouldn’t approve of. I had to beg to stay this summer with my uncle and his sons. Uncle Jahan is the black sheep of the family to begin with.

  If it weren’t for Baba benefiting from my uncle’s disinterest in the family’s wealth and stature, I’m sure Baba would’ve disowned him by now. I still can’t believe I’m here.

  “Nothing,” I mutter and try to close the laptop that my uncle gifted me upon arrival.

  Remi, the other twin, rushes over and reaches out to keep me from closing the device. Plucking it from my lap, he sits on the bed beside me and begins to laugh. Ramses climbs onto the bed on the other side of me, sandwiching me in.

  “Your father will never let you return if he finds out about this,” Remi says as he starts to scroll through the laptop. “She’s pretty.”

  “Let me see,” Ramses says, reaching over me to grab the laptop from his brother. Pulling the device into his lap, he whistles. “Now that is a gorgeous girl. What do you plan to do with her?”

  “Nothing,” I mutter and rub my hands on my jeans.

  “Is that the only word you know in English,” Remi teases knowing that I speak English just fine.

  My cousins are a few years older than me. They’ve been here in America since they were little toddlers. At eighteen, this is my first trip. I’ve looked up to them every time they’ve come to Shiraz to visit. I wanted to come spend time with them this summer to try to be as cool as they are.

  “Ah, we can’t have that. Let me help you,” Ramses says and clicks to request the friendship of the beautiful girl I’ve spent the last two hours staring at.

  “Wait, what are you doing?” My heavy Persian accent thickens.

  “Sakin ol, kuzen.”

  “How am I to relax? You just sent her a request. I… I don’t even have a profile pic. Why would you do this?”

  “Because it’s time you got your dick wet,” Remi laughs.

  “What?”

  Ramses laughs. “You heard him.”

  “It’s a computer. How am I supposed to get my… How is this supposed to help with that?”

  Remi bumps me with his shoulder. “You are a Vahid. She will drop her panties as soon as she sees your face.”

  “But that’s my point. I can’t put my face on there. Do you know what my father will do if he finds out?”

  Ramses pauses as he already has his phone out to take my picture to load to the computer. “Okay. You have a point.”

  “He looks like us. His eyes are just different.”

  “Doğru,” Ramses says thoughtfully. “You shaved today. You take a picture.”

  “You want to put your face on… No, I want to be honest with her. I don’t want to lie,” I say firmly.

  “Give him your Cavallis,” Remi waves for Ramses to hand over his sunglasses.

  I take the shades and place them on. Remi wraps an arm around my neck and snaps a picture. He then takes a few of himself. I fold my arms over my chest and frown at him.

  “Have trust, Omid. We are looking out for you,” Ramses says.

  “We’ll load this one of the two of us together. The shades will put off the snoops and if your father does see, I’ll take the blame. When she sees it, she’ll see two attractive guys and will accept your request. We’ll put up these other photos to make it seem like it’s my profile,” Remi says as if it’s so simple.

  “We’ll change the profile name too.”

  “Use Arman,” Remi snorts.

  “Ha! They won’t know which. Nice.”

  Remi and I have the same middle name. This just may work. “Do you think it will work?” I say as hope starts to bloom.

  I’ve been looking at this girl’s profile since I got the laptop a week ago and started to browse the int
ernet. She’s gorgeous. Big brown eyes that are slanted and sparkle when she smiles. It’s like she’s looking at me in every picture. As if she’s connecting to my soul through each image.

  Her full lips must make kissing the most wonderful thing in the world. Her dark hair is in a different style in almost every picture. There’s one picture of her in shorts and a bikini top. I’ve never been harder in my life than when I saw that image.

  She’s funny too. Her posts show her sense of humor. For a sixteen year old, she’s extremely smart as well. I’ve been watching her debate on one of the sites. She has well-formed opinions and responses. I think her brain is more of a turn on than her face and body.

  “It will work. American girls are different. You will see,” Remi’s says.

  “But… how am I going to… never mind,” I say feeling like a fish out of water. She hasn’t even accepted my request.

  “Will you look at that? I told you we’re too handsome to resist,” Ramses snickers. “You’re welcome.”

  I snatch the laptop back as my heart pounds. She accepted. She really accepted.

  “What will you do now, Omid?”

  Palms sweaty, I grin and send my first inbox to my new friend. I will not waste my time here in America. I want to know this girl.

  Hello. My name is Arman. Can I have a minute of your time to tell you how beautiful you are?

  I hit send and wait for the girl of my dreams to reply as my cousins sit teasing me. The wait seems to take forever. I roll my eyes at my cousins’ antics, but on the inside I feel sick. I could’ve said something different. Something cool.

  “You’re a little smooth. We’ll work on that,” Ramses says.

  “Shit, it worked,” Remi says, “She’s typing.”

  * * *

  Divine

  Lying on my stomach on my bed, I chew on my lip as I read the message again. I almost didn’t accept the request. These thirsty dudes stay in my inbox. Still, there’s something about ol’ boy in the shades and the one without them is fine as hell too. I go to his profile and scroll through his pics.

  I’m a little disappointed to find out that the one without the shades seems to be the owner of the profile. He’s still fine and he got game. I shrug and click back on Messenger.

  “Screw it,” I whisper and start to type.

  Boys at school never holler at me. I’m too dark, too outspoken, too whatever for them. I’m not butt hurt over it. I’ve gotten plenty of modeling gigs since my sixteenth birthday. I’m fine with the skin I’m in.

  I bite my lip as I read over my message. I don’t want to come off like I’m feigning or anything. It’s simple enough. I hit send.

  Hey, what’s up? I’m Divine.

  Clicking back to his profile, I look over the pictures again. “Arman,” I test the name on my lips. He’s Middle Eastern. I can tell that much. My dad would have a fit. I think for a minute that I could be talking to a terrorist but shake that stupid shit off. I hate the way one of my best friends at school gets treated. Dada is the coolest girl in my crew. People make assumptions from your looks in a heartbeat.

  Your name is as beautiful as you are. Do you have a boyfriend, Divine?

  I giggle and start to type back. “Oh shit.” I startle when my cousin, Marica flops down on the bed beside me. She falls onto her back giggling after almost scaring the bejesus out of me.

  “You’re not funny. I’m going to put my brother’s dirty socks in your pillowcase tonight,” I say and roll my eyes.

  She knows I’m bluffing. I love Marica like my own sister. I hate that her family moved away. I miss her being here all the time. She’s only here for the summer now.

  “Whatcha doing?” she says, flipping over onto her stomach.

  I chew on my lip again, deciding on whether or not to tell her. She knows how strict my parents are, but she wouldn’t rat me out. I push the laptop between us and show her the profile pics of the guy that I’m talking to.

  “He just requested me and popped up in my inbox,” I explain.

  “Oh, they’re cute. Which are you talking to?”

  “I think it’s the one without the glasses,” I say as I sit up and pull the laptop into my lap to finish typing.

  “Oh, he got game,” Marica laughs.

  “Right!”

  Thank you. No, I’m not seeing anyone. Why are you asking?

  I hit send and laugh, falling into my cousin. She takes the computer and clicks to look at the pictures again. I think we are both drooling. He has such pretty eyes. There a light amber color. Sort of hazel. His dark hair, thick brows, and lashes are arresting and sort of dangerous too.

  “Does he look too old?” I muse as I knot my fingers in my T-shirt.

  “A little. His profile says his eighteen though. His birthday just passed.” She gasps. “Oh, here. He replied.”

  Because you are now my princess. I have to go for now but we’ll talk again soon. Later, gorgeous.

  “Oh my God,” Marica and I say at the same time.

  Just like that. I fall in love with a boy I don’t even know. Although, I can’t stop looking at his friend with him in the picture. I shrug. Arman is just as fine and he sounds like everything.

  Chapter 1

  Decisions of New

  Omid

  Lifting my head from the pillow, I look beside me. The bed is empty. Once again it was just a dream.

  I turn and squint at the light coming through the open drapes. I groan. “Navid.” I huff and lift an arm to cover my eyes.

  It’s my last day in Dubai before I head back to America. After Salat al-fajr, I thought I’d get a few more hours of sleep. I wanted to get some rest.

  My family has been running me around since I got to Iran. So much has changed in the last few years. I’m here to make peace.

  “You’re the one that wanted to only come for two weeks. You should’ve known all of your mothers would want time with you. Your siblings as well. Your brother has been waiting for you. You promised him you would ride with him in the desert this morning,” Navid says as he moves to my closet.

  “Argh. Yeah, I told him I’d ride the ATVs. Okay, okay, bana bir dakika ver,” I say and roll out of bed.

  Knowing a minute is probably all I’ll get before Navid starts nagging, I swing my legs off the bed. Standing nude, I stretch my six one frame upward before bending to drop into downward dog. Yoga has kept me centered over the years and helped me to keep fit, along with my four weekly workouts. Navid is accustomed to my routine.

  My father may have been pissed when I left but he made sure the man I had by my side all my life followed me as I started my new life. At first, I thought it was to have a spy with me at all times.

  Which was probably baba’s intention, but Navid has become more like a father to me than the man whose seed I come from. He has been with me through all my greatest and most disappointed moments. He has watched me become the man I am today.

  “Don’t forget dinner with your parents before we leave. You have a lot of decisions to make, Omid,” he says when I settle with my legs crossed.

  I inhale and release a deep breath. I know what he’s hinting at but play dumb for the time being. I don’t want to think about what all of the changes mean. While my father has reached out, I’m not naïve enough to think it’s without motive.

  Uncle Jahan and the twins have made a major play. It’s beginning to have a ripple effect. My father has no choice but to try to force me back into the fold. I grin as I think of the twins. They have turned into men to fear and love. They are still there for me to this day.

  That summer I spent with them both broke and made me. My dream comes back to me. I often dream of her face. I will forever remember her, her face, and her name. She was my first love and her memory has stuck with me all these years.

  Navid releases a heavy breath. I give up on the peace I’m trying to cultivate. It’s clear he wants to get this off his chest.

  “Go on. Say what you must,” I breathe as I le
vel my gaze on him.

  “You have accepted his offer to come for this visit. That’s as good as saying you want a run at the throne. Your parents are going to push themselves back into your life. This means you will have to protect everything you have built more than you have in years. Have you thought of this?”

  “Yes, I have.”

  “Omid,” he says sternly. Dropping into a whisper, he moves closer. “Do you plan to continue with your practice?”

  “That I do.” I stand and start for the bathroom.

  “Men have been killed for less. Exile is the least of your worries,” he says to my back.

  Turning back to him, I glare and take a step forward. “I haven’t feared my father since I was an eighteen year old boy. I’m here because Anne cried for me to come. If not for my mother I wouldn’t be here,” I bite out.

  “Ah, but your mother will be the first to get behind your father to meddle in your life. It will not be just you against your father. Your family will not approve of this at all,” he warns. “Sassa means well but she will not stop your father’s wrath when he finds out about your lifestyle.”